So, no one is actually reading this. It's just people seeing my blog in scroogling ads and such the like. Fuck.
Whatever. Today, I had a pear(127) for breakfast and some homemade noodles with edamame and soy sauce for lunch(160) and chicken teriyaki for dinner(150) for a grand total of 437 calories. Eww.
I've also done some research online, and I might have fibromyalgia, which would explain my random pain, although that could also be explained by EDs. To sum up Marya Hornbacher's views on it, essentially, people with EDs are experiencing emotional pain, and they deal with it physically - through food, through exercise, through weight. That pain can also be manifested psychosomatically, as physical pain.
Anyways. I'm plotting my Salt Water Flush. They've never worked for me before, but I'm gonna hope it does this time. I feel like there's a giant rock sitting in my stomach - my lower abdomen is rock hard along the digestive tract, which is gross - and I know that if it goes away, I'll drop down about four pounds.
Four. Whole. Pounds.
This is very, very necessary. My sister will be out of town all winter break, so I can do it the first day she's gone, empty myself out, and then weigh in at 129.5lbs. Which is great, because at 128.0lbs, my collar bones and the affiliated tendons start to really show up, and I'd die for that.
Fingers crossed that it works and I'll see you on the skinny side,
Swannie
No comments:
Post a Comment